The last time I ran 11 miles was nearly 5 months ago. That’s also the last time I blogged optimistically about running. Literally the day after that post, my leg was killing me and I ran about 15 miles over the next 15 days and under-performed at the UC Twilight 3200m.
I ran 11 miles today. I’m going to write optimistically about running today despite the glaring similarities between five months ago and right now.
Mileage has been mid 40s.
Like I said, I ran 11 miles today, starting at 7:15 and closing around 6:00, averaging about 6:45s.
I’ve also gotten to the track the past few weeks for the first time in a long time. Basic workouts like cruise miles (~5:40) and 400s / 200s (~73 & ~36).
These times aren’t impressive, but… that’s kind of the point.
Why wouldn’t I wait until tomorrow to write this so I don’t look like a total dipshit if I’m hurt tomorrow? Because I learn from my mistakes!
Last time I went from 35 miles to 57 miles with doubles and hard workouts in two weeks knowing I was injury prone.
This time I’m progressing much slower / nicer and running easier (although I got carried away the last few miles of today’s long run).
Injury will not be the reason I suck this time around.
First, I’d like to get up to ~50 miles a week for a bit.
Then, Broad Street is 10 weeks from today.
I’ve never raced a 10 miler so I don’t have a great grasp on a time goal. However, I want to be in ~15:2X 5k shape by then (if all goes well), so if I extrapolate that out, I’d say sub 55:00 is a realistic / achievable goal.
Then, the Swat Last Chance meet is a week later, so I want to take a shot at a 5k PR.
With 10 weeks to go, I think I’m in a good place now; mentally, health-wise, fitness-wise, and am just generally optimistic about running.
Sometimes public perception feels so black and white. You’re either one of the good ones or one of the bad ones.
Aziz Ansari is a recent example that struck me. In my opinion, his career shouldn’t be ruined (not saying it is) because of the ‘sexual assault’ story that came out against him. Is it questionable behavior? Maybe. It’s hard to know when it’s he-said-she-said.
But similar to the tweet, he isn’t in the realm as Weinstein, Spacey, and more recently, Nassar, etc. even though the general public seems to lump everyone together. Hence, ‘moral flattening‘, a term I like.
Then we get to people like Weinstein and Spacey. These two abused their power to take advantage of others sexually for decades. I wouldn’t say this is Nassar level, but it’s pretty bad. Personally, I don’t think they deserve a second chance in their industry, but do they deserve to be in prison forever? That’s hard for me to say.
Then there are levels below this, Ansari being one. The past few months have probably been a PR nightmare, but I think he deserves a second chance (assuming he ‘lost’ his first chance at all).
Another example, non-acting / sexual assault related, is Johnny Manziel. Manziel has famously flamed out over the past few years from football phenom to arrogant party boy who blew his career with drinking and drugs.
I listened to the Pardon My Take interview with Manziel today, and when you hear him speak now, you feel for the guy. He’s not like Larry Nassar or Harvey Weinstein. Some will be quick to judge and say:
“He had every opportunity not to blow it, why should I feel bad for him?“
He was thrust into the spotlight so quickly with so many people trying to take advantage of him as he rose to stardom. That’s an extremely difficult situation to handle properly as a 20 year old.
He made bad decisions and burned a lot of bridges, and he acknowledges that now, but I don’t think society should turn their back on him forever. He’s ‘paid his dues‘, and if he works his ass off to get back into football shape, I’d like to see a team take a chance on him.
For the rest of our lives, we’re going to see stories come out against famous people that we’ve never met. Some will be true and heinous, some will be true and unfortunate, and some won’t be true at all.
But every case and person should be tried (in your head) differently. It’s not black and white. We can’t afford to lump everyone into two groups.
“I’d much rather have fun and win a Super Bowl than be miserable and win five Super Bowls.”
Lane Johnson doesn’t know how he’d feel if he won five Super Bowls the ‘Patriot way‘, so I don’t buy what he says, but I immediately thought of my personal equivalent.
I ran for Ursinus. Haverford was the Patriots of our conference. Running was (is) everything for them. They don’t drink, they don’t take shortcuts, and they run a shitload. They turn marginal talent into sub 15:00 5,000m runners all the time and they win every god damn conference championship.
Ursinus was a bit different. Running wasn’t the end-all-be-all for most. We drank every weekend. We tried hard, but we knew Haverford was on a different level.
I ask myself; would I have been happier if I went to Haverford (I wouldn’t have been accepted), sacrificed some of my partying, ran 14:30 in the 5k, and won conferences (that’s very optimistic)?
It’s easy for me to say NO! I had a blast in college! Sure, I didn’t run as fast as I probably could have, but I don’t think I’d trade the memories just to run faster.
But I recognize that, had I gone to Haverford, I’d look at the Ursinus team I was on and think “Man, these guys are just wasting their time and talent. Partying is overrated.”, and likely say that I wouldn’t trade my race times for a few drunken weekends.
So what’s my conclusion? Whatever you do is probably what you’re happiest doing.
There are two thought processes for betting this game as an Eagles fan.
1. Would I pay $X for the Eagles to win the Super Bowl?
The easy answer is yes, I would. I could bet $1,000 on the Patriots moneyline (which would pay $526 profit if they won). If the Pats win, I win $526. And if they lose, obviously I lose $1,000, but the Eagles win the fucking SUPER BOWL.
2. Should I double down on my happiness and bet on the Eagles?
The other option is betting the Eagles and guaranteeing an ultimate high or an ultimate low. Eagles win AND I get $1,650 (Eagles ML pays +165) OR Eagles lose and I lose $1,000.
It almost doesn’t matter which bet I actually think is going to win.
I’m leaning towards betting the Eagles and just going all in for it. Why hedge my happiness? Philly fans are used to the ultimate heartbreak.